Everyone plays the fool at times-unfortunately I learned a very hard lesson at a very young age so here is my story.
This poem originally was published in Sad Poems
Loss of Innocence
When we first met I made you promiseyou would never leave,
then I told you of the demons,
and how they made me bleed.
I made you promise crazy things,
but your words were not enough.
I couldn't believe you loved me
I thought to love me was too tough.
When I cry about my past
and say that I'm ashamed
I know I am the only one
who is to be blamed.
Then you crawl in bed beside me
and say that it's ok-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.
When I can't sleep through the night,
when I toss and turn in bed,
you wrap your arms around me
and chase the demons from my head.
You say don't talk about the past
you tell me that it's gone,
you say since we're together now
it's time that I move on,
you say that I'm your angel
but if you only knew
the kind of thoughts I think
and what I used to do.
You tell me it doesn't matter
and that you love me anyway-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.
They said that's how they liked it
when I dragged my nails across their backs,
but now you hold my hand in yours
and tell me to relax,
you say that this is making love
and this is the better way-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.
I never felt a thing
before you touched my heart
and when you touched my body,
I thought I'd fall apart.
When you kiss my lips,
I feel you deep within my soul
then you wrap your arms around me
and say you'll never let me go.
When I tremble at your tenderness
and melt in your arms,
I know you really love me,
and you'll keep me safe from harm
you know I've never loved
or been loved in any kind of way-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.
SECOND POEM BY HauntedMisery
& with his touch laced with cyanide
She was a.d.d.i.c.t.e.d
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The hallucination of a feeling called love
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Masked underneath her hurt
Masked underneath his lies
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"& I swear I'm different babygirl"
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& oh god what a stupid love struck girl she was
She let her guard down
& he left her
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& as she cries her bitter sweet tears…laced with n.i.t.r.o.g.l.y.c.e.r.i.n. her thoughts race with memories of you
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How you made her smile
The way your touch felt
Your kisses
The way you made her feel like she mattered for once
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But it was all a lie…
"You were supposed to be different"
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I love you is a three word lie /3
& tonight she will pull the trigger & write your name on the bulletJust so everyone will know that you were the last thing that went through her head
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& as she breathes her final breath…she can't help but think of you
The Heart Asks
The heart asks pleasure first
And then, excuse from pain;
And then those little anodynes
That deaden suffering,
And then to go to sleep
And then, if it should be,
The will of its Inquisitor
The liberty to die!
The Heart Asks
by Emily Dickinson
The heart asks pleasure first
And then, excuse from pain;
And then those little anodynes
That deaden suffering,
And then to go to sleep
And then, if it should be,
The will of its Inquisitor
The liberty to die!
On the first poem, I'm actually happy that this girl found someone that respects her and loves her for who she is.... but I don't think that this person is going to take the scars away from her heart. This girl has suffered a lot lately and I don't think that she should be going into a relationship this early after these things happened.
ReplyDeleteThis poem is about a girl who has found much pain through sexual actions. She has been hurt and manipulated. The weird thing is that what poisoned her emitionally, became her cure.
ReplyDeletethis poem was deep and very realistic. i like how the author portrays her as the victim but she is also in a sense her own villian because at the end of the day it is her deciding to subject her self to the abuse
ReplyDelete"Loss of Innocence" is a very very intense poem in which you only have to read once to feel how much emotion there truly is in the poem. This girl has obviously been through a lot and i feel what is most important to look at is that she slowly gets to a better place. I think this love wether young is still very strong and its her only way of healing
ReplyDeleteyeah i agree with all of them, this poem was a hard one to swallow. the concepts behind it and the ramifications of her actions astound me. however i love the hope and the possibility injected within the poem at the end. it shows that after all the pain and the hurt we still can do something and that is hope
ReplyDeleteFirst Poem: I think she is unhealthy and looking for love in the wrong places. You'd think that she'd take it slow and wait to do sexual things with this new boy since she's been used and abused before. But she's 16, and naive. What do you expect?
ReplyDelete[First poem]Again, I'm going to have to agree with Raven. It's understandable that the girl admits that she's done bad things before and is trying to fix her emotions, but having sexual relationships, given her age and siuation, doesn't seem healthy. Perhaps if the boy really loved her... he would wait? I'm not sure though, it's a difficult situation. It is nice, however, to be able to express herself through poetry, because she's extremely good at it. Maybe she should rely on poetry for recovery more than other relationships.
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